Please not under the knife again!

This is a bit off topic from my RNY surgery, however, since having 3 surgeries in a 10 month period, I'm not looking forward to my next follow-up appointment with my Gynecologist.  Why you may ask?

For the past 3 days, I've been experiencing pain again around my right ovary.  The pain worsens when my bladder fills and that when I do go to relieve myself, it hurts then too.  The pain comes and goes throughout the day, just like it did before my last surgery on September 1st.

I've been experiencing some short-term memory loss from being administered anesthesia three times!  I'm afraid that the news will not be good come December 21st when I have an ultrasound done to find out if the cyst is returning. 

I'm not so sure if I can tolerate another surgery emotionally and physically.  It's going to be a long month waiting to find out if the cyst has returned.  If it has, it will be the portion that they could not remove from my bladder. 

If they have to do surgery again, they will be removing both my ovaries which will kick start me into menopause.  My mind isn't really registering all this right now, I'm having a hard time just accepting that I may need surgery again.  I'm going to be 40 January 8th, 2011....I feel like these surgeries are making me feel like I'm 50.

I need all the prayers that I can get.