My Promise

I will remember me for who I am now today, as for when my body changes, my heart & soul never will. - Deliska

Saturday, October 31, 2009

I Could Have, But I Wouldn't Have


I've been waiting to post this.  This One is for Geoff....

Geoff and I met December 10th, 2008 and after receiving consent from both my sons, he moved in with us on January 10th, 2009.  Geoff and I love each other very much and our love for each other grows more and more everyday.  Geoff met me as a 'fat' woman.  He always found me beautiful and accepted me for who I am.  I made two big decisions in June, one was to buy a 'new-to-me' vehicle (2006 Chevy Equinox).  The reason to buy the SUV was because of my diagnosis to my right hip of Osteo-arthritis.  My sales lady, shared with me that she had the Roux-en-Y surgery in January and had lost 60 lbs.  I became exrtremely curious and read about it more.  I had been looking into it for about 2 years before that.  So, I made the decision to get the ball rolling.   So back to Geoff....

I talked to Geoff about my decision and he told me that he loved me know matter what decision I made and that now that I had made it, that we would base our next move on that.  He has been loving, generous with his time, exceptionally attentive and patient with the emotional roller coaster rides I've been on.  Reading my blogs can only give you less than an 1/8th of what I actually went through and felt deep down inside.  To put your feelings and emotions down on paper and living them are two different things.  And Geoff being right smack down in th middle must have been difficult, however he did it out of love for me. 

After so many years of challenges and obstacles, I'm sure that being the strong woman that I am, I could have gone through with this surgery on my own.

Geoff, I love you will all my heart,  you are my ham. You completely changed my life to the extent where I’ve been at my happiest…EVER!.  I cherish you with my every being and thank you from the bottom of my loving heart for making me the happiest woman in the universe.  You bring joy, happiness and lots of laughter to our home. I look forward to you keeping on blowing kisses to me at least 10 times a day and telling me everyday that I’m beautiful or sexy to you. (I never get sick of hearing it)  I appreciate the love you give me no matter what I look like, no matter what mood I'm in. You are a wonderful man.  I could have, but wouldn't have done this without you. 

I'm one lucky girl. Thank you God for sending me your Angel Geoff.

Love you forever Geoff.