My Promise

I will remember me for who I am now today, as for when my body changes, my heart & soul never will. - Deliska

Friday, October 23, 2009

4 Days Left - Stress is Really Setting in

Today I'm making lists and making sure I don't forget anything. I'm a bit stressed, ok that's an understatement, but I'm sure you all can understand why I would be.

Tonight at midnight I start my liquid diet for 3 days. Blah! I've ordered some cranberry juice, diet gingerale, Chicken Broth popsicles and jello. Geez, I can't wait! NOT!!! I'm kidding.

With my house up for sale, I need to make sure everything is just so before we take off Sunday and also make sure that the agents showing my house while I'm away make sure they don't let my cat Trixie out. If anything, that's what I'm stressing over today. I hate the fact of thinking that she will be alone for one week. She'll be okay with the self-feeder and self-waterer, but I think of her getting out when they show my house and her being left outside overnight. There's a cat that hurt her really bad in the spring and it cost me over $500 to get her better at the vets! Hopefully the BOLD print note I'll be putting on my front door 'DON'T LET THE CAT OUT!' will be enough.

Besides that, Brodie is getting ready and packing since he will be staying at a friend's place for 2-3 weeks as I will not be able to drive him back & forth to school. For people who don't know, Brodie goes to school an hour away from our home and travels with me, so he has no other way of getting to school unless he stays at a friend's place.

Geoff and Brodie are being extremely understanding about me being so stressed out right now. They both love me and it really shows when they stand by you no matter what and how you react to everything. I'm probably not the easiest person to live with right now and I try so hard not to be irritable, but it's sometimes beyond my control. The more I try to control it the worse it gets, so I just let 'er rip! LOL

Nose is stuffed up and still getting some chills, so under the blankets I go again. But I'm not worried about being sick as I'm sure the liquid diet is going to cleanse all the crap out of me....LITERALLY!

I asked Geoff if he wouldn't mind picking up the new Tranformers movie at Walmart tonight before he comes home so that we can watch it sometime this weekend. I loved the first one, so I'm sure I'll love the second one.

Received a call this morning from Dr Fitzer's office. It was automated, and asked me to 'press 1' to confirm my appointment with him on Monday at 3pm. Everytime the phone rings and it's Dr Fitzer's office calling, I get this knot in my stomach as if something is going to happen that I won't be getting the surgery, but it always ends up being okay. Stressing for nothing once again. Gotta stop doing that!

Well, better get the heck off of this and get some more rest. This is it guys, tonight at midnight, everything officially starts rolling. Wish me luck! Pray for me! Keep your thoughts positive!

Cheers