Short-Term Benefit Approval

So far my day is going well.  I received a call from my work insurance and they approved my time off until December 13th.  It feels so good not to have to worry about that.  I ate just a tiny bit for breakfast, felt a bit of pain, so stopped right away.  I have to take tiny little bites and pace myself so that my pouch has time to tell me 'enough'.  Lunch was ok, was able to eat closer to the portion that is recommended.

I return to work December 14th and am looking forward to it.  Hopefully with the holidays coming, it won't be so busy and I can slowly get back into it.

Cheers

Nightmarish Day

As you could see from my schedule that I shared yesterday, I've been trying to keep a routine going.  I'm also trying to avoid 'sleeping in' to remain accustomed to waking early for work.  I was hoping to never have to experience what I did yesterday.  Attempting to do everything the way I'm supposed to, I noticed alot more pain and tenderness all day.  Everytime I ate, I felt like the food was...well...stacking up. 

I ate a scrambled egg for breakfast, drained minestrone soup for lunch and flaky fish, sweet potato and peas for supper.  Then the pain became excruciating.  I could hardly breathe, I felt like I was having a stroke or heart attack!  I paced up and down the house, trying to understand what was going on as I quietly cried.  Geoff asked me if I felt like I needed to throw up, and I started bawling.  I was so afraid to.  I was afraid that I may hurt or damage my pouch somehow with the pressure from vomiting, so I was holding back.  Finally, Geoff talked me into just letting things happen and I finally threw up.

The pain almost completely subsided but I was so exhausted and my whole body was shaking like a leaf.  I cried for a bit until I just passed out in the recliner.  Geoff covered me up with blankets and sat with me.

I'm still unsure of the cause.  I'm anal about measuring everything so not to exceed 1/2 cup of food per meal.  I'm curious if it might be the addition of the vitamins?  Could it be an intolerance to the peas or sweet potatos?  It's so unnerving when you don't have the answers.

Today, I'm resting.  I'm cutting my portions down to 1/3 cup per meal to see if that might help.  I'll stay away from the two new ingredients to see if that helps.  I hear so many people talking about this type of pain and how they've gone back to just eating mushy foods to eliminate having to experience it.  I don't want to be one of those people, I want to enjoy my food. 

It's all a learning curve and I have to be emotionally prepared to accept the changes.   On a good note, I received the roses in the pictures shown from Geoff.  That made me smile.

Today will be a better day.