My RNY was October 27, 2009 and now had a 2nd surgery on April 9th for an intestinal hernia and gallbladder removal. I think I've been in denial for the past week, thinking that I could function normally and that this surgery this time around is a cinch. I even tried to return to work last Thursday (not even a week after surgery).
But then it finally hit me last night and I started balling. Geoff held me so tight, almost like he understood how I'm feeling. I've listened to my surgeon (Dr Fitzer) on all counts for this type of surgery and it makes me angry that even though I did everything right, I still ended up with a 2nd surgery. Not only did I get 6 incisions with my 1st surgery, I've got again 6 more!!! Looks so pretty having 12 incisions....makes me feel so sexy! NOT!!!!
I haven't hit rock bottom, but I'm emotional and a bit depressed I guess. I hear of these people that eat what they want, even drink alcohol and never have any complications...and I do everything by the book and still ended up with complications. I keep telling myself, 'if you didn't do it right, it could have been worse'.
I'm returning to work tomorrow (Wednesday). I haven't heard from my insurance company or received anything from them.
I'm sorry to vent, but I'm just really frustrated right now.
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