Back to Square One

About mid December (probably after returning to work), I noticed having problems with some foods that I was eating.  Experiencing alot of pain, or just simply feeling nauseated.  After some time, you start dreading having to eat your meals.  I spoke to Michelle, a nurse from Dr Fitzer's office, and she has recommended that I do a Pouch Draining session.  She was a bit abrupt when she first started talking with me, however after putting me into tears, she realized how upset and concerned I was.  I told her that I felt like a failure since I had been trying so hard to do things the right way.  It's VERY hard to wrap your head around the fact that you may not be able to eat more than 1/4 cup every meal.

So now, I must go back to square one again.  I am returning to the 'Green Sheet' meal plan that I was provided for after surgery.  Every 'Green Sheet Week' only lasting 24 hours, I am starting at week 1, clear fluids only.  It seems that the reduction of food from 1/2 cup to 1/4 cup may still be too much for my little pouch.   They feel that I have strained my pouch and it needs a break. 

I feel extremely tired since lunch and can't wait to go home.  I don't only feel exhausted, I look it too.  I have been told to report into Dr Fitzer's office everyday to speak with the nurse to let her know how I'm doing.  Hopefully, this will get resolved by taking these steps.  On a good note, they are very pleased with my food choices.