Social Outcast

I've been at home for a week now.  The rest of the world keeps buzzing while mine remains in matrix mode.  When you normally have a structured life with work, family and friends, having limited activities after major surgery can affect you emotionally and physically.  Not to mention the limited interaction with co-workers, yes....co-workers too.

Today I sit here, wondering what I will do next...will I sip, walk, burp or fart?  Out of four things that I know I'm actually capable and have become in some distrubing way, very good at this past week, it is becoming somewhat boring and monotonous.

So, do I pick up the phone and call a friend, a loved one?  Do I invite someone over?  Unfortunately, since the high speed life they are living and are accustomed to is still buzzing around them, I don't have a chance of getting any social activity in with them.  Am I being selfish to ask them to pause their life for me?

Even my loved one has forgotten that I sit alone at home, waiting for his return.  Not so much to do at home, not so much excitement to share, nothing really new.  The only thing I really am looking forward to every night is to have him come home to finally have someone to interact with.  My son has finally returned home and that is somewhat helping, but teenagers like to sneak into their dungeon of Internet and Instant messaging.   We did, however,  have a good hour of discussion regarding his stay at his friends, the likes and dislikes and how happy he is to finally be home.  The power of family.

In a nutshell, I feel alone, I feel bored, feel incapable of doing alot of things that I can normally do on my own.  I feel like a social outcast.